One year ago, I sold 1/2 my stuff, and put the other 1/2 in storage.
I was in a 2 bdrm apt that I couldn’t afford. I had woken up in the middle of the night one night, and knew I had to make a drastic change.
Within 2 weeks of that night, the landlord found someone to take over my lease, and I moved in with a woman I had just met the week before to rent a room.
Over the course of the year I…
rented a room for the summer
had various pet sitting jobs in the fall where I was living at their home
stayed in a winter rental in Salisbury for the last 6 months
Before moving into a 1 bedroom apt in Newburyport last week.
Over the course of the last year I moved 8 times in an effort to save money as I built my business.
I had 3 months of that time where I had no place to “call home”.
I had incredible miracles show up sometimes the night before I had to find my next place to stay. I have seen immense kindness and generosity from people that barely knew me.
To be honest, I would have never put all this on a vision board It was exhausting and at times very stressful.
However, I have grown in ways I could have never predicted.
In many ways, I am not the same person I was 1 year ago. It’s funny to think that I had not even started my chiropractic office yet.
To any sane person, I’m sure this sounded insane.
Here’s what I’ve learned…
I have grown an incredible amount of trust and faith in myself, and in life.
I now have a mountain of evidence that life works out FOR you, always.
I have rewired my nervous system to see the unknown and uncertainty as the birthplace for miracles and adventures, instead of fear and threat.
My confidence had skyrocketed. I have faced and done the things I always feared I’d never be able to do, which is to support myself.
The animals I took care of during this time were so special to me, they helped me heal myself, showing me unconditional love.
I was able to release so much grief, shame, fear, anxiety, worry, doubt, and the previous versions of myself that had to die to become the person I am today.
To all the amazing people I met this past year, I am a better person because of you. I will never be able to repay the things you did for me, including your generosity and kindness.
I share all this to be real. Divorce is hard. Starting over is hard. Healing is hard. But, damn I am proud of myself.
Do the hard things, the things you thought you were not capable of…you just might surprise yourself